oh, this bittersweet feeling. i've never felt it so overwhelmingly before. because yes, i've had the time of my life here in the dubz and i've made great friends and learned SO much and had so much inspiration...but i think i'm ready to be home. not that i'm longing for home or wish i were getting on a plane tomorrow...just that i'm ready. and in two weeks when i'm on that plane, i will feel content in knowing that i have had the time of my life. if that makes any sense.
this is week has been an intense one. on monday, we had a lot of class. it seemed like a lot because we only had two days of class in belfast and london was a serious weekend, so monday was just a long day. i've gotten a pretty nasty cold that i'm chalking up to the london underground, too, so i've been dragging a lot for the last few days.
tuesday was another full day. we went to the irish film institute in the morning and sat through three shorts and a feature. the shorts were great. the feature was horrible. that's the bottom line, unfortunately. after that, we went almost immediately to film class to spend another 2.5 hours watching a movie, "michael collins" with liam neeson. while i really enjoyed this film, i was also exhausted and it was incredibly difficult to spend the whole day watching movies. ugh. that night, our program hosted a book launch for terence brown, a professor of english here at trinity and one of our lecturers early on. it was hard to sit through his explanation of the book "literature in ireland," (he has a very raspy, hard-to-understand voice that is difficult to listen to) but we got free wine so that was a nice incentive. the girls and i went out for dinner and drinks that night. though i had thought that i would head home early, i ended staying out late. thus, my cold has only gotten worse. my fault.
wednesday was class as usual. in visual culture, we've moved from our lecturer on ancient celtic art to a new lecturer on modernism and post-modernism in ireland. which i absolutely adore. the lecture was engaging and we're going to the hugh lane (modern art) gallery next week, which i am incredibly excited about. last night, we had a guest lecture on child abuse in the irish catholic church. not the most pleasant of topics, to say the least. once again, this was very difficult to sit through because of how sad all of the facts are.
so, an intense week. i'll be making my way to film class soon to watch yet another movie, "the wind that shakes the barley." after that, luckily, we're finally going to the guinness storehouse, which should lighten the mood of the week. i'm planning another early night tonight to try and shake this cold for the weekend, our last travel weekend! a group of six of us are headed to cork and blarney castle for the weekend, which should be great fun. i'm really looking forward to the weekend, but also looking forward to getting back to dublin for our last week of classes and exam preparation.
i cannot believe how fast this time has flown. i feel like i entered my dorm for the first time just yesterday, so it's hard to believe that i'll be leaving the city for good in a couple of weeks. i'm excited, i'm anxious, i'm sad, i'm happy...it's all incredibly bittersweet. i'm having a hard time focusing living in the present, thinking a lot about what the month of august has in store for me at home. so, my focus will be concentrating on ireland, enjoying the last of my time here and attempting some sense of sanity before going crazy with exams and packing and goodbye parties. it's been a good run, but it's not over yet! i just have to keep reminding myself of that.
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